Is the only way to find God through the process of shedding belief?

Belief is a vessel filled with something. Atheism is an empty vessel.

I am starting to think you might only find God in the nature of non belief…. believing is bullshit. It’s all for wont…. it’s all for show.

This quote again… (poor Pascal’s wager!)

“O Allah! If I worship You for fear of Hell, burn me in Hell,
and if I worship You in hope of Paradise, exclude me from Paradise.
But if I worship You for Your Own sake,
grudge me not Your everlasting Beauty.”
– Rabia al-Adawiyya

Belief is born from weakness… human fragility. Fear of death, or sinning, or losing yourself to time and worms…. or not being able to see your loves and lose this life which is so beautiful it is frightening….. the transmission of thoughts ends abruptly as a blink of an eye but you want to see again.

By studying the nature of lack of belief, I think I might eventually arrive at it, and I mean it. If not a formal God, a deep peace, and inner sense of awareness. But I am not expecting anything.

It’s probably why I read the Tao so often….. you can’t think about nothing…. but you can contemplate it.

Committing yourself to believe will retard the nature of understanding, you blind yourself with human hopes and fears.

But now I shed this… and I sit calmly with my lack of belief, an empty vessel with great potential… something filled cannot achieve much but overflow, and your cup runneth over.

But an empty vessel can always be filled…. and so I sit and transcend the vitriolic eagerness of entrenched desire and lust for more.. than… this.

Instead of spending my time with frivolous belief, I hope to face a stark & lonely cold in hopes to better understand. In this, as I ponder nothing, we will transcend need in hopes of calm and understanding.